It’s not a new thing. I’m just so overwhelmed. I feel like I have too much on my plate, as usual, and I just can’t keep up with ANYTHING. “I don’t know how you do it”, they say, well I don’t either, because in reality I don’t feel like I do. Everything is behind, a mess or just not done. I need some reorganization, some success, some stress-release. Unfortunately most forms of stress release make me feel guilty at this point. I feel like I have so much to do that I just don’t deserve any downtime. But yet if I don’t get any downtime I won’t stay sane enough to get anything done. So, I do try and relax and do something for downtime and I just don’t feel like it helped. It’s kind of like my sleep habits. I crave sleep, seriously, I want to go escape to sleep, relax, let-go, recharge – but when I wake up I always still feel so tired and like the sleep didn’t do much if any good at all.
Okay, enough with the formal -whine- procrastination – off to try and get _something_ done.