Well we are going forth with the mortgage.
I never thought I’d be nervous, never thought I’d have second thoughts, never thought I’d be this upset about it.
I mean, we have waited so long, and we have paid rent for so many years, that we really should be ready for this, I would think.
I still want it really bad, more than ever, but reality just gets to me. The ‘what if’s’ start creeping their way into my thoughts. These things are not bad enough for me to halt things, not even slow things down, but they are there, sitting on my shoulder, weighing down my back, wandering around with me wherever I go.